whirl·wind (hwûrl'wĭnd', wûrl'-)
n. A tumultuous, confused rush.

yes. a tumultuous, confused rush seems to explain the past two week just fine.

two weeks ago today, i had just handed in my thesis and was desperately trying to finish a research paper due that night. after i handed it in, i spent the next evening relaxing by beginning a new project with jess koehler to build a campaign for a village in zambia (not much of a relaxing evening, but it sure beat writing another word).

the next week would be spent in multiple study sessions for the comp exam that was looming over my head. the end would commence with a six hour essay exam that would bring a new definition to the molestation of my already tender brain.

oh, i forgot to mention that my purse was stolen out of my office the day before this wretched exam. it's easy to forget something like that when it's not exactly the most pressing issue on your plate. i suppose it couldn't have happened at a better or worse time for me. the nice police man that came into my office to write a report ended up finding my bag full of note cards, scratch paper and cute red wallet in the men's restroom; contents completely strewn about the disgusting floor (why can't men get their urine INTO the bowl? it still confuses me).

anyway. the poor kids were looking for cash ... to which i have none of ... and they left empty handed. it must have been such a feeling of defeat for them. i mean, they mustered the courage to come into my office, steal the bag from under my desk and run off with it, only to find no reward for their courage. sad day for them.

since this chain of events, i have spent the past few days getting over the fear of opening a letter that says i failed and must relive the six hours of hell from last saturday and have moved on to things i can control ... like my hair color and a social life that is in need of major attention.

my goal is to not so much live in a tumultuous, confused rush. that never bodes well for my overall being. but it would be nice to have a bit of orderly chaos that moves me into a more focused and intentional direction. i think i'll work on that for a while now that i have some spare time ...