tomorrow is a really big day for me.

i've tried not to think of it that way because it will just freak me out ... but it is.

depending on how well i perform on my comp exam tomorrow i could either be a girl who has a master's degree, or i could be the girl who didn't pass and has to prepare for the exam again in march. i suppose taking the exam again isn't the worst thing that could ever happen to me, but i would really like to have my life back. it's not that i don't enjoy studying (because i do) and it's not that i don't enjoy having conversations about theories and leadership philosophies (because i enjoy that too). but i need a little break. and the thought of not being finished after tomorrow is one of the more devastating thoughts i've tried to keep from my mind this week as i prepare.

have you ever worked really really hard for something ... sacrificed your blood, sweat, tears, time and relationships ... for it to come down to one moment? one moment that says everything you've done up until that point was great, but unless you can get over this last hurdle, it will have all been in vain?

the truth is ... i'm as prepared as i can be without having run myself into the ground. and under those conditions i think i've done what i can. i suppose my fear is (like everything), what if what i have to bring to the table isn't enough?

my professor gave our class a word of advice, "just land the plane." it kind-of has a whole new meaning after yesterday's hudson miracle.

stay calm. use what you know. and just get this thing on the ground. it doesn't have to be pretty. it doesn't have to be perfect. just land.the.plane.